Doggie day care in an economic crisis

July 5th, 2009

One of the guests at the cookout I attended yesterday runs a day care center for dogs. You would expect the demand for this to be fairly elastic, so people were asking him how his business was responding to the economic crisis.

He said it was actually holding fairly stable. Of course there are people who’ve lost their jobs and aren’t using day care for their dogs any more. But there are also people who have two jobs or longer commutes and need it more than they did.

And there are the people who thought they should cut back and then came back two weeks later and said the day care was cheaper than reupholstering the couch. Paul said these are all married people; single people just put something over the part that needs reupholstering.

Declaration of Independence

July 4th, 2009

Happy Fourth of July, if you're someone who celebrates it. Even if not, you might want to read the Declaration of Independence and think about it.

In the first place, it's a really good piece of writing. And there are a lot of phrases and sentences that have entered the English Language. It isn't quite as full of quotations as the best of Shakespeare, but it's close:

  • the course of human Events
  • the Laws of Nature and of Nature’s God
  • a decent Respect to the Opinions of Mankind

That's just the first paragraph (preamble). The second paragraph is almost more jam-packed:

We hold these Truths to be self-evident, that all Men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty, and the pursuit of Happiness—-That to secure these Rights, Governments are instituted among Men, deriving their just Powers from the Consent of the Governed, that whenever any Form of Government becomes destructive of these Ends, it is the Right of the People to alter or abolish it, and to institute a new Government, laying its Foundation on such Principles, and organizing its Powers in such Form, as to them shall seem most likely to effect their Safety and Happiness. Prudence, indeed, will dictate that Governments long established should not be changed for light and transient Causes; and accordingly all Experience hath shewn, that Mankind are more disposed to suffer, while Evils are sufferable, than to right themselves by abolishing the Forms to which they are accustomed. But when a long Train of Abuses and Usurpations, pursuing invariably the same Object, evinces a Design to reduce them under absolute Despotism, it is their Right, it is their Duty, to throw off such Government, and to provide new Guards for their future Security. Such has been the patient Sufferance of these Colonies; and such is now the Necessity which constrains them to alter their former Systems of Government. The History of the Present King of Great-Britain is a History of repeated Injuries and Usurpations, all having in direct Object the Establishment of an absolute Tyranny over these States. To prove this, let Facts be submitted to a candid World.

And the last paragraph is the one that makes it such fun to read aloud:

We, therefore, the Representatives of the UNITED STATES OF AMERICA, in General Congress, Assembled, appealing to the Supreme Judge of the World for the Rectitude of our Intentions, do, in the Name, and by the Authority of the good People of these Colonies, solemnly Publish and Declare, That these United Colonies are, and of Right ought to be, Free and Independent States; that they are absolved from all Allegiance to the British Crown, and that all political Connection between them and the State of Great-Britain, is and ought to be totally dissolved; and that as Free and Independent States, they have full Power to levy War, conclude Peace, contract Alliances, establish Commerce, and to do all other Acts and Things which Independent States may of right do. And for the support of this Declaration, with a firm Reliance on the Protection of the divine Providence, we mutually pledge to each other our Lives, our Fortunes, and our sacred Honor.

One of the features that makes it such a tight piece of writing is that it's a syllogism:

A: When these things happen, the government should change.

B: These things have been happening.

C: The colonies are of right and ought to be free and independent states.

Another point to consider is that, compared with many other pieces of political propaganda, it seems to have been mostly true. Not that some of the stories might not have been told differently by the opponents of independence, but historians who have looked at the question find some basis for all the "Facts" in the document.

So you can complain, and I certainly do, about the abuses of power in the system of government set up after this Declaration. But it's worth thinking about all the important revolutions inspired by this language, probably including some minor ones in our own biographies.

And have a good cookout or fireworks or whatever you do.

Wimbledon

July 3rd, 2009

I've been watching Wimbledon instead of reading newspapers and listening to radio news the last couple of weeks, so I can't tell you anything about either Michael Jackson's death or the situation in Honduras.

But I thought I'd share a few thoughts about the tennis:

  • The women's singles draw would have looked like less of a vast wasteland populated only by the Williams sisters if they had shown us some of Elena Dementieva's matches in the early rounds. American TV networks have trouble believing that people want to see good tennis, rather than Americans playing tennis.
  • I've always liked Tommy Haas, and I'm glad he managed to win some difficult matches this year. He's had a history of playing better than his ranking but then losing in 5 sets when he plays a higher-ranked player. But this year he won a 5-set match in the third round against Marin Cilic and a 4-set match in the quarter finals against Novak Djokovic, and played Roger Federer almost even on serve for two sets in the semi-finals.
  • Of course, one hopes that this is because he has his head together better and not because he's changed his doping regime, but I don't think we should be cynical about that without some evidence. This is of course what the tennis association hopes we'll think, and the point of the article is that they're refusing to test so that we won't have any evidence to think with. That is, they're testing only during the big tournaments, and apparently the doping that would be likely to help happens during training.
  • There are some good young American players coming up -- 18-year old Melanie Oudin qualified and made it to the fourth round, by beating sixth-seeded Jelena Jankovich in the third round, and the Men's junior tournament had 3 Americans in the quarter-finals.
  • They really have to look at the computer program that determines the rankings. Nobody watching Dinara Safina (seeded first) play this year would believe that she should have been ranked above any of the next three seeds (Williams, Williams and Dementieva). What happens is that if you play lots of tournaments and get to the fourth round, it outranks playing fewer tournaments and winning them. And the fact that the Williams sisters (who play fewer tournaments) are still there and most of the people who've been ranked above them for the past 10 years aren't should make them think about whether the rankings should be giving points for playing too much.

Hugo Award Voting

July 2nd, 2009

One of the things I have to do today or tomorrow is vote on who should get the Hugo Awards.

I signed up as a supporting member of Anticipation so that I could get the packet of nominated works as ebooks.

I'm going to discuss the novel category, since it's the one I most care about. I expect to read enough of some of the shorter works to vote in some of those categories, but it's having good novels to read that I care most about.

Voting options

The way the voting is set up, you rank your choices, and "No Award" is one of the choices. So the first thing to decide about everything you read isn't "Should this get the award?" but rather "Would I rather there were no award than that this should get it?"

Did you enjoy it?

This year's field of nominees is quite strong, and they're all well-written, but there was one (Saturn's Children) that I disliked. If I were looking for a good book to read, and picked that one up because it had won an award, I would be annoyed at the people who gave it the award. So I'm going to rank that one behind "No Award".

Do you want to read another one?

The others are all books I really enjoyed reading, and I wouldn't feel that the voters had done me a disservice in voting for any of them. So I have to look for some other criterion to decide how to rank them.

I've decided that the next factor to consider about the effect of an award is how it might influence the writers. So the question here is not so much, "Did you like this book better than the others?", but "Do you wish other writers would write more books like this one?"

Now obviously to some extent, each book in this genre is unique -- nobody else is going to write a book exactly like The Graveyard Book about a child growing up in a graveyard raised by the ghosts. But lots of people will be writing "coming of age" narratives about a child who struggles to overcome an unusual background and join the "normal world". And I will read many of them and enjoy them.

Little Brother (Free download) was the first of the books to occur to me as in the category of something I was glad had been written but I didn't want to read again, but now I'm not so sure. Certainly I don't want another coming-of-age narrative where Linux and Social Networking save the world, but another coming-of-age narrative where the intrepid hero realizes that the world he's being educated for is wrong in important ways and fights to change it could certainly be enjoyable.

Similarly, Zoe's Tale seems like a rewrite of all the Heinlein juveniles where the intrepid heroine saves the world and learns martial arts, but if you think about it, it's been updated quite a bit. Both of Zoe's parents do a lot of nurturing, the discovery of the opposite sex is a lot less embarrassing, and the characters' dealings with aliens are interesting. I don't mind at all that Heinlein wrote one juvenile a year (timed to appear at Christmas) for over a decade, and if John Scalzi wants to start doing that too, it sounds like it should make a few people's Christmas buying easier. Whether they should all win Hugo awards is another question, of course.

Old adult versus Young Adult

You may have noticed that the last three books I mentioned are all Young Adult(YA) fiction. I don't believe in being prejudiced about this -- many of my favorite books of all time (Little Women to name one) would be Young Adult Fiction if they were published today.

Anathem is definitely not Young Adult fiction, although in a way it's the same kind of coming-of-age and saving the world narrative that the YA books have. To some extent this is a disadvantage -- there really isn't enough character and plot for a 900 page book, and there are a number of places where this reader wished that it had gotten the kind of editing that the YA books did.

The acknowledgements page credits a philosophical lineage that can be traced from Thales through Plato, Leibniz, Kant, Gödel, and Husserl. Most of those writers couldn't have survived YA editing, either, so I suppose if you enjoy this book (and I did), you have to be glad there are editors who will allow the kind of digressions that turn this from a 350 page novel to a 900 page tome. I do hope someone finds a middle ground some day, though.

So how am I going to vote?

I don't know. Part of why I wrote this was to see if I could figure it out. Here's what I'm leaning to right now; I may change my mind before I actually vote.

  • Anathem
  • Little Brother
  • Zoe's Tale
  • The Graveyard Book
  • No Award
  • Saturn's Children

Potato Blight hits New England

July 1st, 2009

The email from my farm share this morning includes a warning that there have been early signs in New England of a disease called "Late Blight", which is what caused the Irish Potato Famine. It includes information about what to do if you notice things wrong with your potatoes and tomatoes. You can read the whole article at The University of Vermont Extension Site.

The symptoms that develop on tomato leaves, stems and fruit are quite dramatic, and are very obvious to the naked eye. The infected areas on leaves appear to be water-soaked, varying in size from a nickel up to a quarter, often beginning at leaf tips or edges. They proliferate when the foliage has been exposed to watering, rainfall, or heavy overnight dews. If these infected areas dry out quickly, they may appear lime-green or beige in color.

The edge of the water-soaked area, either on the top or bottom of the leaf surface, will be covered with white fungal growth (mycelium) that contains the spore inoculum (visible with a hand lens). Spores are easily blown to surrounding areas and infect plants and even weed species, in the plant family Solanaceae (the black nightshade family).

Brown to almost black lesions appear on infected stems, and the same lesions will develop on fruit, either directly on the infected plants, or a few days after they are sitting on your kitchen counters.

Please inspect your tomato and potato plants on a daily basis! If Late Blight symptoms are already appearing on plants in your garden, these plants should be removed immediately and put in a plastic bag for disposal. Don't just put the removed plants in a compost pile as spores will still spread from this debris. Your neighbors, not to mention commercial growers, will appreciate your taking this action immediately.

Report on the June 30, 2009 meeting

July 1st, 2009

We played:

Schedule

We will be having our usual dropin meetings on Tuesdays at 7:45 PM at my place.

We'll probably skip August 11, so that people can go to the special West Gallery Quire workshop with Francis Rhodes.

What I should be doing on the new site

June 30th, 2009

I started the laymusic.org site before there was such a thing as a Content Management System for a website. I thought I was being pretty sophisticated by having it database backed.

SerpentPublications.org would indeed not be up yet if I hadn't done that, but there's still a lot of stuff about the books and about why I do what I do that's in basic html at laymusic.org, and should be moved into wordpress.

I didn't expect it to be that hard, because I'm using the raw-html plugin for wordpress. So I was thinking that all I had to do was to put two html comments around my html and put it in as a wordpress post.

This is true as far as it goes, but consider the following complications:

Links within the html
The content of the link has to be moved to the new site, and the link has to be updated. This is easy enough on a one-by-one basis, but doing thirty of them at once is a pain. I think I'm not putting most of the pictures into the Wordpress media library; it's just too much easier to copy them to a directory and link to them there.
Links to the page
Until you've put the page into wordpress, you don't know what the link is going to be, and you don't want to change any links until you've published the new page. This means you have to start at the bottom of the tree, and the set of links-to relationships between my html pages is not a simple tree graph.
Redirect the page on the old site to the one on the new site
A lot of people link to the old site, and I haven't yet gotten around to telling them all to change it, and when I do, they'll take their time about changing their links, at least if they're anything like me. So I want to keep the pages on the old site, but have them redirect to the new site. This is another thing I can't do until I've published the page on the new site, but want to do right afterward, since I'm doing a fair amount of improving things as I move them, so I don't want people reading the old, inferior stuff when they could be reading the new, improved stuff.

On a cheerful note, the new site is as much easier to make additions to as I hoped it would be. On the old site, I would spend a morning doing the additions after I'd made several of them, but with the new site, I just do a "make upload" when I've proofread a piece and think it isn't too embarrassing.

What’s being downloaded

June 29th, 2009

Yesterday I wrote about how I was keeping track of which blog posts get read the most. That was so much fun that I've also been keeping track of what pieces on the Serpent Publications Site are being downloaded.

It's also fun, but a bit more irritating. Most of the old stuff that people are still reading on my blog is fairly good stuff (most notably the Bread machine brioche post, which is almost three years old, but I really haven't changed the way I do it, and it's still something I like bringing to places and people still ask me for the recipe).

Unfortunately, a lot of the music people are downloading from Serpent Publications is my really early attempts at getting music notation software to print unbarred parts, and isn't anything like as good as what I can do now.

So if I ever get this website migration under control, one of the things I'm going to be doing is taking the stuff that people are interested in and fixing it up to the current standard.

Another problem is that the most downloaded piece is a not very interesting drinking round, called Tom Jolly's Nose. It's the most downloaded because it's by a man named Henry Aldrich, so in the alphabetical list by composer he comes first, even before the really popular "anonymous". I'm still producing the most downloaded list in the sidebar by hand, and I've thought about cheating and just not listing that one, since anyone who wants it can see it right at the top of the page anyway. I am cheating and giving the Drinking Songs book address instead of the composer, since that will lead to other songs of interest to someone who wants that one, whereas clicking on Henry Aldrich will only give you another link to Tom Jolly's Nose.

But most of the other pieces on the most downloaded list are real big hits that people who come to the site actually are probably interested in seeing.

The reason some of the older ones are downloaded most often is that they were the ones I wanted to typeset first, and so people like me want to download them first. And a lot of them have been updated, even if they aren't this year's latest and greatest typesetting.

One third down

June 28th, 2009

I started this project of posting something to my blog every day on February 25, four months ago. So if it ends up being a one-year project, it's one third done.

I have been successful at making a post every day. The only one that was a real "I can't post today" post was last Saturday. And I really was over half way done with a fairly long and difficult post which I really did post the next day. John Scalzi, one of my role models for doing this, is known for posting a picture of his cat when he doesn't feel like writing, but he's also done, "I don't feel like writing today" posts.

You as readers can tell better than I can how well it's worked for entertaining the readers, but there do seem to be some readers. I started keeping track of how many hits things have gotten in April sometime. And it looks like even the most inconsequential posts get a couple of dozen readers, and the ones that get hit by a search, or have been pointed to in a large mailing list, get hundreds.

Speaking as a writer, it has done some of what I wanted it to -- I now know a lot more than I did a few months ago how to pick a subject I can write about in less than an hour, and how to polish the 20-30 minutes of writing into coherence and then stop and publish.

I was thinking it would be possible to see what the blogging has done for my writing by reading the blogs from the Boston Early Music Festival two years ago and this year. Actually, there wasn't as much difference in quality of writing as I'd hoped for. The editing was definitely better this year, and I think I'm more comfortable letting my personality come out now. The quantity was definitely more two years ago, but I remember that quantity as being very difficult. This year I just decided it wasn't possible to blog and do 11 PM concerts and do morning concerts, so I just didn't do anything in the morning.

One disappointment about the blog as a way to connect with people is that there really isn't as much feedback as with the other kinds of internet writing I do. If you post to a mailing list or email a friend, it immediately becomes obvious if you haven't made your point. If you write a post on your blog, it's quite likely that you won't get any comments at all. But it looks like my audience has doubled in the last four months, so maybe if I keep going I'll eventually get an audience that comments.

In terms of using the numbers of readers as a guide to what to post about, it's pretty inconclusive. It looks like of the easy categories, the ones about food are read more than the ones about the garden. The ones about using technology are also read pretty often, probably because it's something that people are used to using google as a way to find answers for.

Another thing I hoped to accomplish was writing about my experiences being involved in Bonnie's death. That has certainly happened more than it would have otherwise, but less than I expected. This is partly because I still don't have the knack of breaking that subject up into small enough topics that I can make those posts easy ones. Maybe I'll get better at it. Or maybe I'll clear more time for hard posts, but that doesn't sound very likely. I'm still in the throes of the Serpent Publications websiteredesign, and when that's done, I'll have to move on to redesigning this site.

The posts about books and movies are usually pretty easy, and seem to get read fairly often. For the most read one, about Little Dorrit, I took the precaution of taking brief notes over the week or so I was reading the book, so I ended up with several interesting things already written. I should try to be more organized about doing that.

One surprising thing is that none of the people who actually know me personally seems to read the blog regularly. This actually makes it easier -- I don't use anyone's actual name when I write about them, but I certainly sometimes say enough to make it clear to someone who knows my friends who I'm talking about.

So, Gentle Reader, do let me know what you think. If there's a topic you'd like more (or fewer) posts about, let me know. If you'd rather have pictures of Sunny or the garden than "I can't post today" posts, let me know. If I'm being completely incomprehensible about something, tell me and I'll try to clarify.

Maintenance trick

June 27th, 2009

I took my car to the mechanic yesterday because the air conditioner didn't seem to be doing anything. Not that we've needed it for cooling this Spring in this part of the world, but it wasn't defogging the windshield, which we have needed.

He checked it and found the fluid was low, which was probably from a leak, but there was no way to tell what was leaking, except by filling it up and seeing where it came out.

In this case, he only had to start putting more in, and it was clear what line was spewing expensive ($150/tank) fluid.

But if it had been a slow leak, I would have had to come back a week or even a month later. And I wouldn't have come back until quite a lot of environmentally destructive stuff had leaked out on the roads.

So what my mechanic has started doing about this is putting in fluid with a flourescent dye in it, so that he can see as soon as it leaks where the leak is.

This seems like a very good idea, and I would encourage manufacturers to put the flourescent dye in in the first place, so that a leaky air conditioner can be caught and fixed in routine maintenance.

In general, manufacturers who aren't also maintainers should look for tricks like this that make maintenance easier, cheaper, and greener.

Marley and Me

June 26th, 2009

This film is exactly what you'd expect -- Hollywood's take on a family's love for its dog. I enjoyed it.

One thing some critics have said is that the book is a little bit less of a Hollywood picture of a marriage. So that might be a good thing to read, some time when you need an easy read, or one you can get from the drugstore or airport bookstore.

The end of the movie is a tearjerker, but putting down a dog you love is a difficult decision, and people should have seen versions of it in other people's lives. I thought the John Grogan character's verbalization of it was apt: Marley, you tell me when it's time. And the funeral where the children write letters to Marley is beautifully done.

Of course the "world's worst dog" subtitle is completely unjustified; Marley doesn't ever do anything that any dog doesn't do. The Kathleen Turner dog-trainer turn is brilliant, but not at all fair to the dog-trainers I've known.

The least well-captured aspect of dog-ownership in the movie was the other dog-owners in the park -- my experience is that you can get a great deal of support for dealing with a difficult dog (and they're all difficult sometimes) from other dog-owners.

Hollywood doesn't really try for the kind of accurate depiction of a lifestyle that some of the European and Independant film-makers do, but they really should have done better in the scene where Marley decided stairs are too hard, even to sleep with the family. He lies down in front of a blazing fire, which the family is just leaving there as they go to bed. I'm sure this isn't what the real Grogan family does.

In terms of my personal situation, Sunny is at the stage where he doesn't always hear me come in, but he's still dealing with stairs. It will be a major decision point if he decides he can't, since I can't carry him, and our apartment starts on the second floor.

Last day stew

June 25th, 2009

One of the things you have to do when a farm share is dumping a large box of produce into your car's trunk every week is have some general recipes to use up the stuff from last week when the stuff for next week is coming.

So Tuesday I put all the salad greens I still had into a salad and fed it to the band. Then yesterday I made a stew of the cookable stuff still hanging around.

This was basically the Bok Choy from the first week and the Kale from last week. So I took two cans of tomatoes, a cup or so of quinoa, two cups of liquid (in my case, a cyser that's too dry to drink straight) a can of pinto beans (if I'd been organized, I would have soaked beans early in the day, but I wasn't), two medium onions, several cloves of garlic, and some seasonings, and threw everything in a pot. I sauteed the onions, the garlic and the stems from the leafy vegetables in olive oil before adding them to the pot. I let this simmer while I practiced tuba and recorder and vocalized, and then had it for dinner.

I don't have feedback from anyone else, but I went back for seconds. It will be a good thing to have around for meals when I don't feel like cooking any of the wonderful things in this week's share.

Report on the June 23 meeting

June 24th, 2009

We played:

Schedule

We'll be meeting as a dropin group for the next few weeks, at 7:45 PM every Tuesday, at my place.

We probably won't meet on Tuesday, August 11, so that we can go play with Francis Rhodes and the West Gallery Quire.

Blu-ray discs

June 24th, 2009

It took a while, but I finally convinced my new computer (not the exact model) to play a blu-ray disc. (The problem was that the system as shipped needed at least two upgrades. It wasn't trivial to set up the sound either.)

The picture on blu-ray is indeed better than with a standard DVD, and I don't have a problem with paying Netflix an extra $2/month to get blu-ray discs when they have them.

Unfortunately, the plan is to move this computer upstairs to be my desktop. I don't think the old computer is powerful enough to play blu-ray even if I bought it a drive. So I'll probably go back to watching regular dvd's when I finish setting up this one.

If I decide after doing that that I miss the blu-ray enough to buy a player, I'll let you know. Of course, ideally I would be able to play the disc on the computer upstairs and watch it on the TV downstairs, but I think they work pretty hard to stop you doing things like that. I'll definitely let you know if I figure that one out.

In case you're wondering, the movie I watched was Slumdog Millionaire. I was a bit disappointed, given how much some of the people I know had liked it. It was a good movie, with one likable character, and good acting and photography, but it was just a Hollywood movie. It was about an interesting culture, but didn't really have anything very enlightening to say about that culture.

The advantage of watching this kind of movie at home instead of in the theater is that you can go feed the dog during the scene where they gouge the child's eyes out. So it is expecially nice to have the extra resolution on a movie where there's one scene you want to skip.

Massachusetts health care

June 23rd, 2009

There's an article on slate.com this morning called Bringing Down the House: The sobering lessons of health reform in Massachusetts. Slate is a large organization, and some of the writing is a lot better than others. This one isn't one of their better efforts.

The gist of the article is:

The expensive Massachusetts plan is not well-designed to systematically improve anyone's health. Instead, it's a superficial effort to clear the uninsured from the books and then clumsily limit further costs by discouraging care.

In the heat of the moment, I posted this comment:

I think this article ignores the managed care option. I'm sure the discussion of up-front costs and copays is true for some plan that's available, and it may be the cheapest per month, but my impression is that the purpose of the current cost structure is to drive people to managed care. This gives them hefty copayments for some expensive services, but makes routine preventative care practically free.

My own plan (one of the subsidized ones) has more copays than some really poor people have, but the choice for the mother whose baby has a fever would be between paying a $50 copay for the emergency room and waiting for the doctor's office to be open and paying a $5 copay.

Thinking about it while walking the dog, I realized that a better criticism of the article would be to point out how divorced from any facts the author's thesis was. If you want to argue that a given system discourages care, shouldn't you feel that you have to present some statistics that show less care is being used under the current system than under the previous system?

I'm not an expert, but certainly there have been reports in the press suggesting the opposite -- for instance, that the number of primary care providers (PCPs) accepting new patients has dropped because all the people who have insurance now and didn't before have signed up for a PCP and are using him or her.

My personal experience of the new Massachusetts system has been pretty good, once I gave up on figuring out how to apply for the subsidized care myself and got the social worker at the clinic I go to to help me.

There are several major things wrong with health care in Massachusetts, but the insurance requirement discouraging use of health care really isn't one of them.

Successful party

June 22nd, 2009

It wasn't great day for it -- I'd hoped to be out in the back yard with the grill going. If we'd been fanatical outdoor cooks, we could have done that; I don't think the rain ever exceeded a heavy drizzle. But we all decided there was nothing wrong with cooking on a stove and staying dry.

So it was good that in spite of having invited the whole attendance of the Boston Early Music Festival, the people who actually showed up fit comfortably in my living room.

One thing I mean by a successful party is one I'm excited enough about to get housecleaning done in advance, and this one worked quite well for that. While little roomba vacuumed the living room, I sorted music from the stack that had accumulated on the sideboard where I leave music when I'm running a rehearsal, but put drinks on when there's a party. There's still lots more music to put away, but it isn't getting in my way as much as it was yesterday morning.

I said in the invitation that if poeple told me what they were bringing, I could coordinate. Of course, this is true only if people tell you what they're thinking about bringing before they actually cook it, or do the shopping for it. One guest asked me whether I'd prefer a green salad or sweet potatoes, and since one point of this party was to use up the greens that Picadilly Farm has been sending me, I told her sweet potatoes. Then the next email I get is from another guest who has just made a sweet potato salad. So I decided we were just going to tell everybody that sweet potatoes were this summer's trendy health food, and suggested that the next person who emailed me might want to get in on the fun, too. She said she'd done her shopping the day before and already had the cookies in the oven. In the end, one sweet potato dish was mashed with pecans and maple syrup and the other was a salad with peppers and scallions, so it wasn't a problem.

I have my friends pretty well trained to bring stuff when they come to parties, so all I did was provide beverages, a large green salad, and sausages and veggie burgers. I'd planned to make the veggie burgers, but I decided more cleaning was more useful than more cooking, so I bought them.

The less successful aspect of the party was that nobody new came, but the flip side of that was that everybody liked each other, and the conversation was pretty good. My sister was there, so we did singalong around the piano (with serpent and fiddle) instead of playing Renaissance or West Gallery music.

Another good thing that happened was that one of my friends borrowed my xaphoon. I forget why I wanted to buy it a few years ago, but I did learn to play Never on Sunday on it at the time, and concluded that getting saxaphone chops was going to be too much work. I couldn't demonstrate it at the party. Anyway, he might end up buying it, or even if not, it will clutter up his apartment instead of mine.

Bonnie’s major blood loss on April 1, 2008

June 21st, 2009

I mentioned yesterday that reading about the Silverwood family sitting on the coral reef with the father dying from blood loss because his leg has been mostly amputated by a falling mast reminded me of the afternoon I sat with Bonnie while she was bleeding from her gastrointestinal tract and getting transfusions so she wouldn't die. The timeline says this was April 1, 2008, a couple of weeks after we were officially told to assume that she wouldn't recover, and a month and a half before she actually died.

I was driving to a physical therapy appointment, planning to go on from there to visit Bonnie a the rehab hospital in Salem. I don't believe in doing phone calls while I'm driving, and certainly not the kind of phone calls where doctors are explaining complicated procedures to you and asking you to make treatment decisions. The part of Cambridge and Somerville I was in has pretty busy traffic, but you can sometimes find a parking place to pull over into. So with these several calls, I was sometimes able to pull over and answer the phone, and other times I had to attempt to call the busy doctors back and deal with the switchboard trying to find them. (This is in a parking space, but with a lot of truck traffic going by.)

So the first phone call said that she was bleeding heavily and they wanted my permission to do a transfusion. So I said OK.

But then the questions got harder -- did I want them to do an endoscopy? Did I want the blood thinning medications stopped? (I was surprised they were still doing blood thinning medications.) Could I give permission to move her from the rehab hospital to the Lahey clinic? I said I'd be there in about an hour, and we could talk about it better then.

When I got to Bonnie's room, it was bustling. Normally there were the two hospital beds with patients in them, and the noises the machines made that were breathing for the patients, and an occasional visitor or nurse speaking quietly. But this time they'd cleared a fairly large area around Bonnie's bed, and there were several people standing around doing things. Eventually I sorted it out that there was a special nurse keeping an eye on Bonnie because she was critical, and the people actually doing the transfusion.

They were telling Bonnie she shouldn't go to sleep. She was conscious, and writing fairly clearly -- one thing I remember vividly was that she wrote "Will I die?" We asked her whether she wanted the endoscopy. I think the way they put it was, "Do you want to go to the Operating Room again?" She said, "Yes."

At this point the decision had been made to stabilize her as well as they could with the transfusions and then move her to the Lahey Clinic, which was better set up to deal with patients like her, and the endoscopy would be there if there was one. So I stayed around to keep her awake until the ambulance people came to "pack" her. (That is the word they use.)

I had left hymnals in her closet, and one of the things I carried in the bag I brought when I visited her was Rise up singing. So I started with the lullaby section in that, but then moved on to the other sections. I must have sung several things I probably hadn't sung since high school. One of the nurses sang along. When I started having trouble singing because I was crying, a nurse would come hug me. The special nurse who was staying there was afraid of Sunny (one of the good things about this rehab hospital was that they were tolerant of well-behaved pets visiting the patients), so I kept him leashed on the other side of the bed from her. He was unusually good about getting out of the way of the people working on the transfusions.

It was a couple of hours later that the EMT's came to put her in the ambulance. By then, I think she wasn't as cold from the blood loss and the transfusion process. For reasons which are completely obscure to me, I let them talk me into taking all her stuff, which took up most of the available space in my car. (There were things like the walker with the seat which she wasn't ever going to use again, and a giant teddy bear someone had given her.)

I had a recorder lesson that evening, and it was interrupted by calls from the emergency room at the Lahey Clinic. Some of what they wanted to know was why she was on medications I'd never heard of. They wanted to know how she was "coded", which meant nothing to me, but then they explained that she was "Do Not Resuscitate", which we had agreed to verbally, but I'd never signed anything. (I've talked to people who believe that doesn't happen.) The doctor I spoke to told me that it was unclear whether she'd make it through the night.

Of course, when I called the following morning, I wasn't able to get any information about her status because the nurse didn't have a "code" for her. (Different code -- a password you can set up when you're there so they know you're someone they can talk to when you call.)

Eventually, they did do the endoscopy, and found no problems in the part of the colon they were able to access. There was a section that was so squeezed in by the cancer that they couldn't get to it to see it. But it looked like all the bleeding must have been caused by the blood thinners, not by actual ulcers.

It was shortly after this that the doctors started discussing hospice care with us. One of the things they emphasized was that if she were in a hospice, she wouldn't get the transfusions if she started bleeding again. But they also wouldn't be giving her IV medication like the blood thinners, so in fact, she never did bleed seriously again.

If I had it to do over again, I think I'd be more pro-active about making sure I knew what medications were being given and why.

I actually think it would have been better to die of the blood clots earlier in the process than the way she actually died, but I given all the decisions she made both before and after the stroke, I can't say I believe she agreed with me, so I really couldn't have made a different decision about the blood transfusion and the endoscopy.

Maybe later

June 20th, 2009

I’ve started a post about an episode in the death of Bonnie Rogers. I need lunch before I can finish it. So I’m hoping to put it up later today, but if not, I’ll post it tomorrow.

Black Wave

June 19th, 2009

I read this book because I've always been fascinated by books about life aboard ships, and I thought it would be interesting to hear how it worked out with a real, contemporary family.

That part was interesting, although it's mostly from the mother's point of view, so you wonder how well it meshes with what the children would have said. The short version is that the kids, especially the oldest one, were grumpy about leaving their friends and toys behind at first, but then settled down to become amazingly adult crew members.

What was more interesting was the description of the night they were shipwrecked on the coral reef, with the father's leg having been practically amputated by the mast falling on it.

And probably the best-written section in the whole book is the one comparing their shipwreck experience with the shipwreck in almost exactly the same place in 1855.

Some things I thought while reading the book:

  • Definitely not very good "experience of alcoholism" writing -- there's description of the family reaction to the idea of the father taking a drink, but no description of why this would be something to worry about.
  • The area where the shipwreck happened had been mapped by the Bounty under Captain Bligh. Both the 1855 and the 2005 shipwrecks occurred when the captains believed they were 16 miles away from the atoll. It's apparently possible to believe that the chart was compiled with an error by the disaffected crew of the Bounty that has never been corrected. (John Silverwood thinks it's more likely that some of his electronic equipment didn't work quite the way it was supposed to, but he still likes to think about the other possibilities.)
  • I still don't really know why you aren't supposed to go to sleep when you've been losing a lot of blood. I spent several hours with Bonnie once when she was hemorrhaging, and the doctors and nurses thought it was important for her, and John Silverwood's family and the medical personnel who rescued him tried hard to keep him awake. After the fact, he denies that he was ever unconscious, but you apparently could have fooled all the people closest to him.
  • It was hard to stay oriented in time -- a timeline or even just some dates on the map in the front of the book would have been helpful.

It's a pretty quick read, and I enjoyed it in spite of some flaws, so you might, too.

Lilypond vs. Petrucci, round 3

June 18th, 2009

After my last post on the subject of trying to get Petrucci-like spacing out of lilypond, someone came up with a conceptually simpler way to get equal spacing -- just tell lily to treat all the notes as if they were quarter notes. It isn't automated yet. For each note, you have to tell both the value to print and the fraction of the note value to use for spacing, and you effectively have to put the line breaks in by hand, but it really does look a lot more the way Petrucci did it, and less like a nineteenth century engraver who thought a breve was a large note value instead of a short one.

So here's what the tenor part looks like now:

[lilypond equal-spaced output]

And to remind you, here's the facsimile:

[petrucci's version]